Melissa Loa’s Weblog

Truth be told, I was actually starting to doubt myself. I was going through a phase. For a while, I just wanted to give up on digital animation. I was thinking that this program is so not for me.  I just wanted to quit the program for life. Yeah, I was totally losing faith in myself. It might have been the stress getting to me. I am so worn out. I’ve actually never worked or cared about school as much as I do now… in my whole entire life. Seriously. Haha! So maybe… I’m just not used to working this hard (and I’m actually letting go *sort of* my social life for this program! Wow!) Haha! Back in high school, I was like… whatever, man. I don’t give a crap. I was probably the biggest slacker ever. I’d have tons of sick days… and whatnot. My friends see me now and they’re all like …you’re always at school. You never come out with us anymore. You never skip class. We do it all the time–We’ve turned into  you in high school.  I’ve changed. A lot… I’ve gone from a big slacker to a hard worker.

No worries…. I’m back to liking my program again. I’m not going to let the stress get to me, ever again (hah! I say that now… but I know it will happen again.) It finally doesn’t kill me to stay at school after class or during my 7 hour gap anymore. I guess I can thank Mona for getting me… started on staying at school. Haha. She’d be like… so are you staying? No. Why? Cos I don’t want to. What are you doing after? Nothing. ….*thinks* OKAY. FINE. I’LL STAY. Dammit Mona.

Anyway, since I’m so broke…. and I’m really stressed out, I can’t resort to retail therapy. SOOO… I’ve been really giddy lately. I’ll laugh my ass off at anything… pretty much.

Back to working on my Maya… face. I’m actually… taking a break right now from the face. …but since my blog entry is almost finished, I guess I’ll work on it again. I actually am enjoying character… face modeling. I think. It’s fun. Yay… so fun. So fun!

I have work tomorrow. Early. I am too excited. No really, I am. I LOVE to work. I spent my last two summers working my ass off… only to bust all that earned in 6 months. Talk about spending issues. Someone needs to handle their money better.